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Reboot, again.

Dearest Diary…

I’ve been in a bad place for about a year with my weight loss efforts. 2010 was great. 2011 was shaky. 2012 has been a disaster.

I’ve officially regained about 50 of my nearly 70 pounds lost on Weight Watchers. I’m not sure exactly why I lost focus and let the weight creep back, but it’s really not working out anymore.

My back hurts, I have indigestion, I get winded reading the kids bedtime stories aloud, I can’t even pretend my clothes fit anymore and finally went up a size, I have less energy and a bad attitude. It’s funny how you don’t notice that happening until you look at the sum of things.

I was looking back on where I was last year at this time and I’m disappointed by how far from that I am. Last year at this time I had finished a 10k, spent a good part of the summer at the beach, was gearing up for the Warrior Dash, weighed the same as I did 15 years ago and was two full sizes smaller. I was feeling pretty good. I was becoming less enchanted with the Weight Watchers meeting experience and had already started shopping for a new leader.

I couldn’t quite get my schedule together, then the holidays hit. From my daughter’s early October birthday straight through Valentine’s day, I had lots of reasons to celebrate with food and I did. I think without my Saturday morning anchor, it’s been easier for me to minimize the accumulation of many small gains and start avoiding the scale altogether. I had to go with the flow more than usual and wasn’t as vigilant in sticking with my meal planning. Forget about exercise.

By January, the leader at the new WW location I’d found quit and I was left to find another fit. I spent the spring on and off between my original meeting and trying out a really popular midweek meeting, but neither stuck, so I abandoned ship. Of course, I kept paying until this month, but stopped going or following the plan quite a while ago.

On the exercise front, I’ve continued to use my treadmill off and on, I signed up for a 30 Day Shred challenge on facebook and stuck with it for a week, I’ve gone walking on our neighborhood trail exactly twice and ridden my bike with my son as many times. I flaked on the Lupus 5k this year, but did donate! I signed up for the Ranch Romp and gave my registration to a friend of a friend instead of participating. I didn’t sign up for the Wharf to Wharf and have declined invitations to the Warrior Dash. My Friday walking buddy moved out of town, and truthfully, for the last three months of the school year, we chose to walk the 1/4 mile to Starbucks and back rather than our 2+ mile neighborhood walk after drop off anyhow.

Now that I’ve got that off my chest, where do things stand?

I’ve realized some things about myself. I am at my best with a structured plan. I can’t hinge my motivation on others. My weight is directly connected to my self confidence. I know what I need to do, but who doesn’t? I perform very well under pressure. Money makes poor choices too easy. I need praise. I thrive with routine.

With all of that in mind, I’m recommitting.

  • I will spend the next two weeks tracking everything I eat with MyFitnessPal to try and establish some kind of routine/habit. It’s set my daily goal at 1260 calories and I can add more calories with activity.
  • I will weigh myself every morning. Some people say to only weigh once a week while trying to lose, but from my experience, I need to do it daily or I forget to do it at all. It also helps keep me from sweating fluctuation. If I see my weight vary by three pounds between days, the once a week snapshot loses a little impact – for better or worse.

In two weeks, I’ll evaluate and either add another element or extend my focus on these two goals. In the end, I want to get my groove back and find my way to better health and feeling good.

And with that, I’m off…

Thursday Food Journal

Today was pretty relaxed. The kids and I went to the library and picked up a bunch of books and dvds. Weather was a little hit or miss, so we just took it easy. I got a good jump on my new book: “My Year of Meat”. So far, it’s fun –Β  a Japanese-American documentary maker is working on a new Japanese game show sponsored by the US Beef Exporters called ‘My American Wife’ focused on encouraging Japanese to embrace imported meat. I haven’t read any fiction since the last book of the Hunger Games and it’s been a while. Well, I tried to read that anthology of Jane Austen fan-fic short stories, but didn’t get very far.

I’m counting down to weigh-in tomorrow morning.

My goal this week is to track. Here’s what I ate:

Breakfast, 5
Oatmeal with strawberries
Instant coffee
Lunch, 8

Tuna Sandwich, pepper & carrot sticks and grapes
Snacks, 6

Instant coffee
WW Dulce de Leche bar
Dinner, 6
Ham, potatoes au gratin and broccoli

For really realz?

Just found this gem while looking through the pics from Easter at my parent’s house on Sunday. I thought I was looking cute :-/ And, am I perpetually shouting at kids? Cheer up old lady, it’s not that bad!

Yesterday was good. In addition to tracking, I was motivated to hop on ye dusty olde treadmill for W1D1 of Couch to 5k. I have the nagging Ranch Romp countdown in the back of my head, 24 days to go…

I’ve already given myself permission to flake on the event.

I’ve been off the wagon for too long not to embarrass myself. It’s going to be like a high school reunion with all of the facebook friends that are participating. I’m feeling cheap about gas to get there.

BUT, then again, I always have fun once I’m there. A bunch of girlfriends will be in for the fun. My sis-in-law signed up and she’s wavering (I’m better at being strength for others than for myself…). And, I’m feeling wasteful about losing the registration fee I’ve already paid πŸ˜‰

24 days will tell which way the wind blows.

My goal this week is to track. Here’s what I ate:

Breakfast, 5
Oatmeal with strawberries
Instant coffee
Lunch, 5

Cauliflower soup
Wasa crackers with Laughing Cow cheese
Peppers, carrots and cherry tomatoes
Light ranch dressing
Snacks, 3

Pineapple slices
Instant coffee
WW Dulce de Leche bar
Dinner, 9
Homemade ‘fried’ rice (white rice, carrots, peas, ham, green onion and egg)

Weigh In

I tracked every day and walked for 30 minutes, four times:

Weigh In

Ha! Up 3 pounds… Well, I suppose that’s not entirely a surprise. Last night was Valentine’s Day and we had bread lasagna and a bunch of chocolate covered chocolate – both delicious! I also haven’t visited my treadmill in about a week, so that makes a difference, too.

This week, I’m re-reading all of the Simply Filling materials and planning to track what needs to be tracked. I wish I could find a great meeting! The one I’ve been attending for the last month is convenient time-wise and by proximity, but the leader is still out. I feel like all we talk about are points for eating out and processed items low in points you can buy at the grocery store. I think I’m just in a place where I know what I want to eat, I need some tips for staying motivated. It’s too bad there aren’t any meeting specifically for those following Simply Filling. Maybe there is. I’ll put that on the to-do list as well πŸ˜‰

Weigh In

-2.2 πŸ™‚ I’ll take it!

This meeting is SO crowded, though. It’s been a sub for the last three meetings (my previous 6am Saturday leader) but the receptionist said that the regular leader is really something special. She does this 10am meeting and one earlier at 8:30 and they’re both packed to the rafters. Standing room only, seriously. I’ll need to plan to get there a little earlier next week.

Still Kickin’

I’ve neglected the blog, but not my efforts πŸ˜‰ I’ve broken through my plateau-ish 6 month stretch and have just 2.4 more to lose in order to reach 70 pounds lost! 80 pounds and I’ll be high-fiving a hobo, per Jack Sh*t!

ACTIVITY: Warrior Dash coming up in the next few weeks. I haven’t done much to prepare, so we’ll see how that one goes. I’m also looking forward to my 2nd annual Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving. Kicking off year two of changed habits, folks!

FOOD: Still Weight Watchin’. I’ve been tracking daily and seeing the results on the scale. No real magic there. I’ve settled into two week meal plans and still love the Food Nanny.

Weigh In

I didn’t lose my 1.4 for 65 on Saturday 😦 In fact, I gained .6 after a full week of tracking, staying within my points, working out four out of seven days. I know I need to focus on the bigger picture, but I’m frustrated that I can’t seem to get past this point.

The last few days have been ridiculous food-wise and I KNOW that won’t get me any closer to my goals, yet I made poor choices and tossed tracking out the window anyway. Sigh. This week’s WW meeting topic is plateaus. Maybe it will give me the kick in the butt I need.

I’m tracking my food today and have a Sweatin’ With The Oldies date with the BFF tonight. Time to check myself before I wreck myself.

Weigh In

Went to my weigh in this morning for a 4.4 pound loss in my 3 week absence πŸ˜‰ If I can lose 1.6 in this week, I’ll be down 65 altogether! That’s a 5 pound star, something I haven’t earned since April 2nd! APRIL 2ND?! Sheesh, it’s time to break through the plateau…

Weigh In

Alright, not good. I haven’t officially weighed in in two weeks. I do weigh myself every morning, so I’m confident I’m not completely derailed. My daily weight has been within four pounds of my plateau weight in either direction for a few months now and these last two weeks haven’t been much different.

This Saturday coming, I will have a number to plot on my chart, and I believe that number will be lower than the one on the last sticker in my WW record book πŸ˜‰